MadForHatters

My mother is dying from the Corona Virus and it's very likely I have it too. I don't know what's going to happen to me. I'm scared. I don't want to do this anymore. I'm so sad and angry; I have no idea if I caught it and gave it to her or the other way around. We were so careful but because so many people are idiots we still got it. It's really not fair my life is nothing but misery and it keeps getting worse. I want to die but life just wants to torture me. I don't think I'm old enough to die from the virus but it has a clear shot at my mom and it can make me feel super sick. All I did today was just mostly watch the hours pass.

I'm seriously so depressed. I wish I were a person of value or had anything to contribute that people care about. My guinea pigs are all that's keeping me here. I wonder how long they have left.

Word got around that I'm ready to have a pet again so someone with a pig that had four babies (poor momma!) contacted me and, after going to see them, I'll be picking two sisters up on Monday since my work schedule and Easter are far too busy. I don't like the idea of leaving two new pets alone until I'm sure they'll be able to settle in and aren't too confused by their new cage. They're calico colored and just so cute! I can't believe how soft their fur is and they didn't really mind being held. One of the sisters had pretty wide eyes, so I could tell she was scared, but I think with her bolder sister around she'll do just fine. I still can